Jennifer
Dearest mom...
It's been almost 2 years since you left. I struggle everyday knowing I was never given the chance to say good bye to you. I massive weight sits upon my shoulders because of it. As you would tell me just give it to God, I have several times but for some reason I take it back. It bugs me that the glads I planted for you were dug up and taken it bugs me how we talked and the promises that were made were All broken it bugs me how people walk around knowing what they done yet they look at me and turn the other way. It just makes me bow my head 🙂↕️🙂↕️ and ask our Lord to get me through the day. I'm so sorry the letters you wrote to me were distroyed. I wish God had a rewind button so I could go back in time and push it. Nothing would have been taken. I don't know why but I'm slowly trying to let go. I started talking to dad again he sure does miss you. Now I understand how you felt when you'd say Mark enough. I'm regaining my backbone mother I'm finding my voice I keep most of the world away from me just because there's always a price to pay. Still homeless just can't get up on the leg in this world but I haven't.given up yet nor will I ever. I still remember your phone number I remember our talks and I remember singing to you and the look on your face when I cut all my hair off for you. Talk about a priceless look lol regardless mom I miss you so very deeply. Yet I'm ok I don't know what or where I'll go next month but for right now I'm am okay. I can't bring myself to hate on anything or anyone I'm just not cut like that. I really never knew how much you were a part of my world until I was made to leave you. I wish I could of been there for you I wish people would have been truthful and not so jealous. I wish people would have followed through with their promises but these are only wishes they will never change they are only forgotten. I'll miss you until the day I die but just so you know I do have one thing you wanted for me. I finally found my better half and he's the most amazing man you would of loved him mom you really would of. I love you forever and always your oldest daughter Jennifer Morrow Pennington
